There are many facets of change that I am in the midst of at the moment that I could write about…but right now none of them matter. My daughter will be turning four on the sixth of October, and while I do not write about her much, she is what comes to mind when I hear the word “change”.
I never thought I wanted to be a mother, too many emotions, too much work, just too much …but for some reason, and I still do not know why, this little girl chose me to be her mom…at the ripe old age of 42. Que BIG change. It is the highest of highs and the lowest of lows…emotions are extreme, and just when you think you have got it kind of figured out…guess what…change.
Yes, I am sure you have all heard the saying “they grow so fast”, “kids change everything”, etc. It is true, she can go to bed and wake up looking different the next day, it is fascinating and fun and more of an adventure than climbing Mt. Everest…and more exhausting, do you want to know why? Because even though every day can feel like the movie Groundhog Day…guess what…when it changes, it is monumental. Yes, it is a colossal step to go from needing help putting on pants to no help putting on pants, really, it is. It is like I just gained an hour of time, and she is so proud you would think she accomplished world peace. Plus, now at this age you never know what is going to come out of her mouth, like telling me she did not hear me because her ears are too small. Unexpected is always around the corner, like a zip line made out of a rope and an umbrella…
From the time she was a baby I could not picture in my mind or imagine what she would look like or be like a year down the line. I cannot even fathom what she will be like at the age of five because I am in it now and absorbing all I can now, because as the quote says, you cannot stop the future…and I do not want to miss a thing!
With every alteration this girl goes through, I go through one as well, and I don’t want to rewind or look too far ahead, I am just so excited for each day that all I want to do is “press play”.
Change
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Your daughter is lucky to have a caring mom. Change keeps us going,puts fuel in our souls in a way. We live for today, knowing change is near.
Change is good…keeps things interesting. Thank you for visiting and commenting on my site! I will be checking yours out soon!!
I love this post when I read it i feel like life happens at its own time, no rush if anything is meant to be it will be, i sometimes worry at 30 that i wont have children ever, forgetting that all will happen when it chooses…it is also beautiful to learn that having a little one is like watching a flower blossom you can actually see time move, unlike most of us who fight and try to stifle time hoping that nothing changes so we get the illusion that time stays still…thanks for this post and enjoy your little one
Sorry so long to reply! I’ve gotten behind on my blog and reading of others…life and all that! You put it beautifullly when you say your can see time move in a little one…captures it better than any words I’ve heard before. I wouldn’t change a thing in being an older mother…not one! So carry on and yours will come when he/she deems you are ready!
Aloha!
I think that you are indeed on a magical carpet ride. You can be grateful and happy to see these changes.
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Thank you as well!! Yes, it is a wonderful ride…:)
Very nice.. (y)
Thank you!